- The resident and nurses kept telling mom and dad that she could go home the next day (starting all the way at the beginning of the week saying she could leave Tuesday!) Her doctor knew something just wasn't "right" though and kept wanting to do more, wait for more etc.
- The found that she had an increased pulse rate that was sitting around 100 (which we all know so much about!) and after many tests and worries it was found that she had a blood clot in one lung. However it was not in a dangerous area at all and they say that it could have potentially been sitting there for years or it could only be from the last surgery.
- Because of this we entered into the realm of blood thinners :S Even more so we entered the realm of home health care for a brief period of time with so much conflict. Big city told mom and dad that a nurse would come to the house daily to give her injections for 30 days. Our town told us that a nurse would come out for three days to teach someone how to do the injections. Reality - A nurse came out, went over all the stuff associated with the injections and then asked who would be doing the injections. Neither mom or dad could muster up the courage to do it, so I stepped forward. From then I had to giver her 38 injections total!
- Mom went back in early January for her follow up and was put on a pill form of blood thinner. We had to do six more days (with horrible pre-filled syringes instead of me having to draw up the dose myself) and then she was switched fully to pills.
- She has had a lot of blood work done since is now on getting tested every other week) and her values have been right in the appropriate scale and has only had to take one pill a night when generally I understand this is abnormal as it usually takes a lot of play to get the dose right.
- She goes back the second week of March to find out about the blood clot, we assume another CT scan will be done.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Mom update
Wow I didn't realize I hadn't updated on what went on with mom yet! I swore I had written it up already but it must have been all the emails and phone calls I made during that week mom was in the hospital. Lot's happened so I am going to just do point form what happened:
GP Appointment - January 31st
This will be brief (for once!) I promise :) I went to see my GP and had a short list of things to go over and we managed to get them all covered with no real frustrations or upsets. The easy part was just getting my pain medications refilled for the next three months. He still doesn't want to switch me to breakthrough med #2 as he thinks it's a "dirty" drug. No mention that I had been on it for like 5 years and have never had an issue for it. At the last appointment he was confused as he asked me who prescribed it to me last and I told him that he was the last. He is fine switching between slow-release #1 and #2 but only wants me to be on breakthrough #1. Back then he told me that I could increase my dose as I was only taking one or two doses a day (which generally means it's time to change things up) but that I could take four to six doses a day (yet only gave me 100 pills for three months). Anyways that will be the challenge for the next appointment.
A few days before the appointment I had a scary incident where it felt like my head was going to explode it felt so full of pressure. I have had this before but this night I was getting slight blackouts on the edge of my vision, my eyes actually hurt and my ears kept throbbing. I heard there was a medication that would help with headaches and help with the pressure feelings. So I asked my doctor about it but he read it interacted with one of my other medications (which could be stopped if I had to) and read that it was a migraine medication. Out of nowhere he comes out with "these won't help you, you don't have migraines you have pressure build up headaches". My jaw just about dropped!! We spent years trying to figure out the headaches and it was only a few years ago that my internist confirmed that they were because of the neck issues. So I have my doctor saying that my headaches are from pressure build up in my brain!! It's so funny how when you drop trying to get someone to understand what is going on, is when they come out with it all on their own. So anyways, he agrees to try something else for headaches and actually wants to put me on a different AD as it is supposed to have less side effects. I am mainly wanting to get rid of, or at least decrease, the dry mouth issues as I hate having dental work every year (and already know I will have to go in again which is a horribly defeating feeling). He doesn't want to change the meds though until the weather stabilizes. This is twofold a) depression is bad this time of year and he wants things to be less depressing weather (if that makes sense) and b) with the big changes in weather that will affect the headaches as well so it's not the opportune time to work on headache meds. I am totally fine with this as long as he is willing to put this in action when the times comes.
Lastly I asked him about getting a new bone scan done. He turned and looked intrigued and asked why. I told him how my old rheumy liked to get one done every two to three years to keep on top of everything and to see if there are any changes in the bones or joints that are occurring that we could use for preventative instead of dealing with them when they become a problem. Surprisingly he also thought it sounded like a good idea and had the receptionist get one set up. And that was the entire appointment. I know it doesn't seem like much but to get all those issues addressed in one visit was very productive.
A few days before the appointment I had a scary incident where it felt like my head was going to explode it felt so full of pressure. I have had this before but this night I was getting slight blackouts on the edge of my vision, my eyes actually hurt and my ears kept throbbing. I heard there was a medication that would help with headaches and help with the pressure feelings. So I asked my doctor about it but he read it interacted with one of my other medications (which could be stopped if I had to) and read that it was a migraine medication. Out of nowhere he comes out with "these won't help you, you don't have migraines you have pressure build up headaches". My jaw just about dropped!! We spent years trying to figure out the headaches and it was only a few years ago that my internist confirmed that they were because of the neck issues. So I have my doctor saying that my headaches are from pressure build up in my brain!! It's so funny how when you drop trying to get someone to understand what is going on, is when they come out with it all on their own. So anyways, he agrees to try something else for headaches and actually wants to put me on a different AD as it is supposed to have less side effects. I am mainly wanting to get rid of, or at least decrease, the dry mouth issues as I hate having dental work every year (and already know I will have to go in again which is a horribly defeating feeling). He doesn't want to change the meds though until the weather stabilizes. This is twofold a) depression is bad this time of year and he wants things to be less depressing weather (if that makes sense) and b) with the big changes in weather that will affect the headaches as well so it's not the opportune time to work on headache meds. I am totally fine with this as long as he is willing to put this in action when the times comes.
Lastly I asked him about getting a new bone scan done. He turned and looked intrigued and asked why. I told him how my old rheumy liked to get one done every two to three years to keep on top of everything and to see if there are any changes in the bones or joints that are occurring that we could use for preventative instead of dealing with them when they become a problem. Surprisingly he also thought it sounded like a good idea and had the receptionist get one set up. And that was the entire appointment. I know it doesn't seem like much but to get all those issues addressed in one visit was very productive.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
BIG Update - Part "Mom"
So after all the drama a few months ago with mom, the ordeal is finally over (for the most part). On Friday morning she went in to surgery and we were all very happy to find out that the cyst was NOT attached to anything (they thought they would have to remove part of her bowel and resection it as they thought the cyst was attached to it) and they were able to do the hysterectomy at the same time which means no more surgery :) (Which I doubt mom would have gone through having a separate hysterectomy after the last two surgeries). She is in a semi-private room right now in Big City and is pretty comfortable. They took out the pain pump and she is just using T3's at this point which is good. The back pain she had been getting is already different, still pain but not the same feeling as before. They have even got her up and walking a little (from the bed to the bathroom to the door and back). The doctor said it was pressing up against her central nervous system so having it removed should fix a lot of problems. The doctor who did the hysterectomy said the cyst was the size and shape of a decent sized turkey! They guess between 8 and 10 lbs! Dad is still down there with her and will stay there until at least after talking to the doctor on rounds on Monday. He will decide then, and talk to me and see how I'm doing here alone with K, about if he will come home or stay up there longer.
BIG Update! - Part "Me"
Okay, once again it has taken me a long time to do an update and there is so much to update you all on so I will break it down into three posts - update on me, update on my mom and general update on situations going on. So this is the first one and it will be about little ol' me :)
So a few weeks ago I suddenly got a major toothache along all the teeth in my left top jaw and my cheek was all swollen and so as my eye. I went straight to the doctor and he barely even touched my cheek and said I had a massive sinus infection and didn't even check my ears or throat, just wrote up for an antibiotic. I have had this one before and hated it but it left a terrible taste in my mouth. This time around strangely the bad taste only lasted a few hours yet I had an actual appettite! I was eating two full meals a day and as eating almost normal portion sizes. It did cause some GI upset but once I started eating yogurt with it it settled down. Going to definitly have to talk to my GI/internist/cardio about it next time I see her to see if this could help things in any way at all.
I had a planned doctor's appointment last week mainly to change over my pain meds. He had no problem switching my long acting meds but was absolute in his refusal to change my breakthrough meds. He says the one that I switch to is 'dirty' and that it's not used anymore and that he won't perscribe it. I told him that he wrote for it last year and the fact that I had been on this med for like seven years. He then said that there was no reason that I needed to change it because he was changing my long-acting. I told him that I was getting tolerant and because of the switching medications I hadn't had to change my dosage in years. He asked how many breakthrough I was taking and I told him that lately I had been taking at least one, a lot of the times two a day. He dismissed this and told me that I could take it at least three to four times a day. I told him that my rheumy always told me that if I as relying on my breakthrough on a daily basis then it was time to either switch or increse my long-acting meds. He told me that he would rather me take more of the breakthrough I am on instead of switching to the other breakthrough medication. I still wasn't feeling all that well (even though I did get down-graded to just a cold and that the infection was gone) so I just basically gave up. The next appointment should be interesting as this could become quite the battle.
Mom was very mad that he told me to just take 3 or 4 breakthrough meds instead of switching over to the other medication as we have been working this system very successfully for 5+ years and my GP had been going along with the plan my old rheumy set up - until this appointment. Still not sure what we are going to be doing as I am still needing at least one breakthrough dose a day, which for just changing my long-acting is more than I normally would be needing.
On another note - this cold is killing my joints! My hands are very stiff (I think part of this is an auto-immune flare up that my doctor just doesn't want to put time into figuring it out) and my knees and all the other joints are really achey and (strange word but all I can think of) arthritisy. I have also been having some strange 'changes' in my GI system that I have no clue what is going on. But until it becomes a problem, we have more important things to deal with.
So a few weeks ago I suddenly got a major toothache along all the teeth in my left top jaw and my cheek was all swollen and so as my eye. I went straight to the doctor and he barely even touched my cheek and said I had a massive sinus infection and didn't even check my ears or throat, just wrote up for an antibiotic. I have had this one before and hated it but it left a terrible taste in my mouth. This time around strangely the bad taste only lasted a few hours yet I had an actual appettite! I was eating two full meals a day and as eating almost normal portion sizes. It did cause some GI upset but once I started eating yogurt with it it settled down. Going to definitly have to talk to my GI/internist/cardio about it next time I see her to see if this could help things in any way at all.
I had a planned doctor's appointment last week mainly to change over my pain meds. He had no problem switching my long acting meds but was absolute in his refusal to change my breakthrough meds. He says the one that I switch to is 'dirty' and that it's not used anymore and that he won't perscribe it. I told him that he wrote for it last year and the fact that I had been on this med for like seven years. He then said that there was no reason that I needed to change it because he was changing my long-acting. I told him that I was getting tolerant and because of the switching medications I hadn't had to change my dosage in years. He asked how many breakthrough I was taking and I told him that lately I had been taking at least one, a lot of the times two a day. He dismissed this and told me that I could take it at least three to four times a day. I told him that my rheumy always told me that if I as relying on my breakthrough on a daily basis then it was time to either switch or increse my long-acting meds. He told me that he would rather me take more of the breakthrough I am on instead of switching to the other breakthrough medication. I still wasn't feeling all that well (even though I did get down-graded to just a cold and that the infection was gone) so I just basically gave up. The next appointment should be interesting as this could become quite the battle.
Mom was very mad that he told me to just take 3 or 4 breakthrough meds instead of switching over to the other medication as we have been working this system very successfully for 5+ years and my GP had been going along with the plan my old rheumy set up - until this appointment. Still not sure what we are going to be doing as I am still needing at least one breakthrough dose a day, which for just changing my long-acting is more than I normally would be needing.
On another note - this cold is killing my joints! My hands are very stiff (I think part of this is an auto-immune flare up that my doctor just doesn't want to put time into figuring it out) and my knees and all the other joints are really achey and (strange word but all I can think of) arthritisy. I have also been having some strange 'changes' in my GI system that I have no clue what is going on. But until it becomes a problem, we have more important things to deal with.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Frustrations
I don't know why but lately I just feel like everyone is against me and that everything I do is wrong. I can't even begin to count how many suppers I have missed because everything blows up and I can't eat after. Stress makes me not hungry at all, most of the time it causes naseua and then the heart rate jump and adrenaline kick in making it just oh so much fun. I always thought stress and EDS was a bad combo but I know better now, stress and autonomic dysfunction is even worse! I immediatly think of stuff to post on facebook to relieve stress but that isn't possible anymore because I have my parents and a few of their friends on my friends list and that would just create another fight. Tonight just really got me because everyone in the house was mad at me. The reason - I tried to help K study for his math test tomorrow. Should be interesting to see what he gets on it :S
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Update
1) Holding a baby is a strenuous activity
2) Someone is finally AWOL
3) Preparing for flu season
4) Finally getting somewhere with doctors
5) A light is dawning
The first one is obvious I should think. I held my friends baby for about 30 minutes on Sunday afternoon with not much support for me and then again for a good 2 hours Sunday night and woke up with a shoulder and upper arm so sore you would have thought I had been in a prized fight. I was even surprised when I didn't see bruises. How can something so small (under 7lbs) cause any pain. However, there is no way that I will ever not hold him because I am worried about pain the next day. Just not going to happen!!
Second is actually welcomed news. My mom finally admitted over Thanksgiving weekend that my brother has gone missing. They have heard nothing since the early early hours on October 5th, he is not updating his facebook page and his cell phone has been disconnected. Just what my mom needs during this time she is supposed to be using for healing in the run up to more surgery. So we are back to the whole keeping doors locked and not answering any phone calls from unknown numbers.
My mom, K and myself all went over to the doctor's office yesterday to get our flu shots. I know this can be a controversial topic but we choose to get ours. Last year I didn't get one (as I was sick) and I was sick from mid-October through February. I am not doing that again!! It was easy getting K to get one this year, I just told him he couldn't see the baby if he didn't get his flu shot! He got his shot then looked at me and said "That was it? It didn't hurt!". We are still waiting on dad to get his but keep telling him with mom's upcoming hospital excursions, her need to heal and my crappy immune system he has to get one!
Fourth on the list is one that is pretty frustrating. As you all know from my LONG post the other day about my mom, we have been in limbo for a while. Dad decided on Monday that since it had been three weeks since the 'surgery' that he was going to call around and see what was going on. He called mom's ob/gyn (Dr. P)'s office to see just what was going on and they hadn't heard anything but told him that they would make a few calls and find out what was going on. They called back shortly and told dad that they were glad that dad called because when they called 'big city' they were told that mom's appointment was actually last week!!!!! They had an appointment set up for her on October 18th that we never knew about and they never even questioned why someone in our situation wouldn't show up for an appointment. Well dad was pissed!!! I wouldn't have wanted to be on the other end of the phone. So he called the general surgeons (Dr. B) office and just let go saying that they could be there in an hour and 15 minutes and that they would come at any time. They told dad that Dr. B operates on every other Thursday and sees patients the other Thursday's (not sure what she does every other day of the week :S ) so they 'squeezed' mom in on November 1st at 8:45 in the morning!! Which leads me to think that the doctor is coming in early to get mom's appointment. Now remember, we live over an hour away so this makes it an insanely early time to get on the road for the appointment. I honestly would suggest that mom and dad went up the night before and got a hotel but I don't think mom would go for that. Now, here is the tricky part. Thankfully mom was sound asleep through all of dad's phone calls and just woke up to find out that she has an appointment on November 1st. Dad doesn't want to put anymore stress on her so we are not going to tell her about the 'missed' appointment. Not sure how that will work out when she gets to the appointment so we will just see what happens. Now this is only a consultation visit but we are hoping that we get a lot more information and dates from this.
Lastly, something I have been trying to avoid I think. I am starting to realize just how messed up my GI system is getting. I have all the 'normal' EDS and gastro lower GI issues (constipation, bloating, bleeding, cramping etc) but always just chalked that up to the pain medications that I am on and never thought anything of it. A few weeks ago we found out that the stool softeners I have to take are not supposed to be taken within two hours of other medications! I always took them with my normal night time medications. So mom and I figured that maybe we should try stopping that to see if my night meds might just have been affected and messing with my sleep. I went out and bought some Miralax and switched to that for a week. I have never had the stomach cramps that I have had this week, and lots more issues with constipation so I will definitely be switching back to the pills as I haven't even noticed a difference with the other meds. But at least I tried and saw what happened. Now as to upper GI issues, I have noticed them getting a lot worse, especially after the scope I had last January. I have finally got the real bad reflux under control with changing my actonel drug dosage thankfully but have lately been noticing other issues. I have had a lot of problems with eating and having it feel like it is just sitting in my stomach. I am not talking about feeling full a few hours after supper, I am talking not wanting to eat for a few days because I was still full from a meal I had a few days ago. Also have found that I have to be careful when feeding the dogs and actually sit on the floor to feed them instead of bending and reaching down as if I do this (like touching your toes) the food literally comes back up and I have been quite close to throwing up. I have to watch more which foods I eat as well as to figure out which cause me problems and stuff like that. I have also been under a lot more stress with mom's problems but also quite run down as I have had to be more active this last month filling in for mom and stuff like that. Once things settled down, this will be an issue that needs to be looked into for sure.
2) Someone is finally AWOL
3) Preparing for flu season
4) Finally getting somewhere with doctors
5) A light is dawning
The first one is obvious I should think. I held my friends baby for about 30 minutes on Sunday afternoon with not much support for me and then again for a good 2 hours Sunday night and woke up with a shoulder and upper arm so sore you would have thought I had been in a prized fight. I was even surprised when I didn't see bruises. How can something so small (under 7lbs) cause any pain. However, there is no way that I will ever not hold him because I am worried about pain the next day. Just not going to happen!!
Second is actually welcomed news. My mom finally admitted over Thanksgiving weekend that my brother has gone missing. They have heard nothing since the early early hours on October 5th, he is not updating his facebook page and his cell phone has been disconnected. Just what my mom needs during this time she is supposed to be using for healing in the run up to more surgery. So we are back to the whole keeping doors locked and not answering any phone calls from unknown numbers.
My mom, K and myself all went over to the doctor's office yesterday to get our flu shots. I know this can be a controversial topic but we choose to get ours. Last year I didn't get one (as I was sick) and I was sick from mid-October through February. I am not doing that again!! It was easy getting K to get one this year, I just told him he couldn't see the baby if he didn't get his flu shot! He got his shot then looked at me and said "That was it? It didn't hurt!". We are still waiting on dad to get his but keep telling him with mom's upcoming hospital excursions, her need to heal and my crappy immune system he has to get one!
Fourth on the list is one that is pretty frustrating. As you all know from my LONG post the other day about my mom, we have been in limbo for a while. Dad decided on Monday that since it had been three weeks since the 'surgery' that he was going to call around and see what was going on. He called mom's ob/gyn (Dr. P)'s office to see just what was going on and they hadn't heard anything but told him that they would make a few calls and find out what was going on. They called back shortly and told dad that they were glad that dad called because when they called 'big city' they were told that mom's appointment was actually last week!!!!! They had an appointment set up for her on October 18th that we never knew about and they never even questioned why someone in our situation wouldn't show up for an appointment. Well dad was pissed!!! I wouldn't have wanted to be on the other end of the phone. So he called the general surgeons (Dr. B) office and just let go saying that they could be there in an hour and 15 minutes and that they would come at any time. They told dad that Dr. B operates on every other Thursday and sees patients the other Thursday's (not sure what she does every other day of the week :S ) so they 'squeezed' mom in on November 1st at 8:45 in the morning!! Which leads me to think that the doctor is coming in early to get mom's appointment. Now remember, we live over an hour away so this makes it an insanely early time to get on the road for the appointment. I honestly would suggest that mom and dad went up the night before and got a hotel but I don't think mom would go for that. Now, here is the tricky part. Thankfully mom was sound asleep through all of dad's phone calls and just woke up to find out that she has an appointment on November 1st. Dad doesn't want to put anymore stress on her so we are not going to tell her about the 'missed' appointment. Not sure how that will work out when she gets to the appointment so we will just see what happens. Now this is only a consultation visit but we are hoping that we get a lot more information and dates from this.
Lastly, something I have been trying to avoid I think. I am starting to realize just how messed up my GI system is getting. I have all the 'normal' EDS and gastro lower GI issues (constipation, bloating, bleeding, cramping etc) but always just chalked that up to the pain medications that I am on and never thought anything of it. A few weeks ago we found out that the stool softeners I have to take are not supposed to be taken within two hours of other medications! I always took them with my normal night time medications. So mom and I figured that maybe we should try stopping that to see if my night meds might just have been affected and messing with my sleep. I went out and bought some Miralax and switched to that for a week. I have never had the stomach cramps that I have had this week, and lots more issues with constipation so I will definitely be switching back to the pills as I haven't even noticed a difference with the other meds. But at least I tried and saw what happened. Now as to upper GI issues, I have noticed them getting a lot worse, especially after the scope I had last January. I have finally got the real bad reflux under control with changing my actonel drug dosage thankfully but have lately been noticing other issues. I have had a lot of problems with eating and having it feel like it is just sitting in my stomach. I am not talking about feeling full a few hours after supper, I am talking not wanting to eat for a few days because I was still full from a meal I had a few days ago. Also have found that I have to be careful when feeding the dogs and actually sit on the floor to feed them instead of bending and reaching down as if I do this (like touching your toes) the food literally comes back up and I have been quite close to throwing up. I have to watch more which foods I eat as well as to figure out which cause me problems and stuff like that. I have also been under a lot more stress with mom's problems but also quite run down as I have had to be more active this last month filling in for mom and stuff like that. Once things settled down, this will be an issue that needs to be looked into for sure.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Unexpected Surprise and a Little Upset
Well I know this should have been about my mom and what is going on (and has gone on) but something else has come up that I wanted to blog about. Because of all the moving I did with university and moving back home and honestly a lot because of EDS and the accompanying issues, I am down to one good friend in my hometown. This friend "S" has been around a long time in my life. Ironically our parents were acquaintances before we were even born! They used to bowl on a league together but then lost touch with each other when my parents stopped bowling. S and I became friends in grade 3 when I changed schools and we quickly learned our past history through out parents. We were really close until about grade 8 and we grew apart. We were in different levels at high school and in different circles of friends but were always friendly with each other, just didn't get together as often. When I left to go to University we lost touch but when my nephew was born we got back in contact and kept in contact. She was the only person I knew in my home town friend wise when I had to leave university part way through my second degree. She had been there when I had some of my knee surgeries and always stopped by with Slushies and a movie. We grew apart a few years ago again mainly (knowing this now) as I fell into a deep depression and severed most ties with friends. Anyways obviously we got back in contact, and she was married one year ago yesterday. I was not in the wedding mainly because she knew I did not have the money to do it, didn't want to put a strain on our friendship (as we had both had friends that we stood up in for their weddings then the friendship would end) and honestly because my health couldn't take it. We talked frequently on facebook and started spending more and more time together again as she had more problems with other friends.
Anyways, last year around the beginning of April she stopped by the house for a quick visit and we were talking about how my neighbours were pregnant (the girl who lives next door is one of S's good friends sister) and S gave a small smile and said "I'm about a month now" and rubbed her stomach. Mom and I were so happy for her and then she said her mom would kill her because she wasn't supposed to be telling anyone about it as it was so early stages but that she knew I could keep the secret. Since then she ended up losing her job and we fell into similar circumstances again. Not having money to go out shopping all the time or movies every week so since this summer we have basically been getting together weekly and scrap booking or doing some occasional trip across the border for shopping. She confined in me all her fears and worry's about being pregnant and not knowing what to do with a baby (she is pretty much the youngest in her entire family). She was due to have her baby boy on Halloween. She even talked to me about the name of the baby and told me that only family knew and they didn't want anyone else to know as they didn't want to 'jinx' it.
Last night I went facebook and was very surprised to see her brother post a picture of a gorgeous little baby and then confirmed that yes, S had her baby. I went up to the hospital today around 2 and stayed there while they took him to get circumcised and tried feeding him (behind a curtain) and just be there. I found out that her husband had dinner plans with his family and S's mom had plans to go on a day trip with family (remember she gave birth 3 weeks premature so plans had already been made) and that S would be alone from about 5:30 until the next morning! I quickly offered to stay in with her and she looked relieved to have someone there with her. I ran a few errands and got back to the hospital around 5:30 until 9ish when she was going to attempt another feed than get settled down for the night. I found out that I was the only friend that had come up to the hospital to see her so I was the first non-family member (technically) to hold the little man.
I held her little boy most of the evening and even admitted to her that I had regrets. If I had of known that I would end up disabled and my parents having custody of K, I would have stopped school when he was born so that I could be there to watch him grown up more. Then I told her how I wasn't going to have kids and even said that I would love to be able to watch a little baby grow up as this would be my only chance. I told her that if she needed absolutely anything to just call me and that this weekend when her husband has to work, I have no qualms about packing up an overnight bag to go in and stay with her. Both her and her mom looked a little more relaxed when I said that. I helped change a diaper, helped with the creams and gauze from the circumcising and just held and rocked him and she remarked that I knew what I was doing and she was going to need help and was glad that I knew what I was doing lol.
So all of that was really good news... the bad news? I am in pure agony right now. My entire right leg is in spasms and painful (even a pain killer isn't dulling it) and my right arm right from neck down to fingers is burning. It really makes me mad that just going in and getting to know my best friends new little baby and holding him for a few hours has caused so much pain. It is just so frustrating :( Going to have to double up on the pain meds if I want any chance to sleep tonight :S
Anyways, last year around the beginning of April she stopped by the house for a quick visit and we were talking about how my neighbours were pregnant (the girl who lives next door is one of S's good friends sister) and S gave a small smile and said "I'm about a month now" and rubbed her stomach. Mom and I were so happy for her and then she said her mom would kill her because she wasn't supposed to be telling anyone about it as it was so early stages but that she knew I could keep the secret. Since then she ended up losing her job and we fell into similar circumstances again. Not having money to go out shopping all the time or movies every week so since this summer we have basically been getting together weekly and scrap booking or doing some occasional trip across the border for shopping. She confined in me all her fears and worry's about being pregnant and not knowing what to do with a baby (she is pretty much the youngest in her entire family). She was due to have her baby boy on Halloween. She even talked to me about the name of the baby and told me that only family knew and they didn't want anyone else to know as they didn't want to 'jinx' it.
Last night I went facebook and was very surprised to see her brother post a picture of a gorgeous little baby and then confirmed that yes, S had her baby. I went up to the hospital today around 2 and stayed there while they took him to get circumcised and tried feeding him (behind a curtain) and just be there. I found out that her husband had dinner plans with his family and S's mom had plans to go on a day trip with family (remember she gave birth 3 weeks premature so plans had already been made) and that S would be alone from about 5:30 until the next morning! I quickly offered to stay in with her and she looked relieved to have someone there with her. I ran a few errands and got back to the hospital around 5:30 until 9ish when she was going to attempt another feed than get settled down for the night. I found out that I was the only friend that had come up to the hospital to see her so I was the first non-family member (technically) to hold the little man.
I held her little boy most of the evening and even admitted to her that I had regrets. If I had of known that I would end up disabled and my parents having custody of K, I would have stopped school when he was born so that I could be there to watch him grown up more. Then I told her how I wasn't going to have kids and even said that I would love to be able to watch a little baby grow up as this would be my only chance. I told her that if she needed absolutely anything to just call me and that this weekend when her husband has to work, I have no qualms about packing up an overnight bag to go in and stay with her. Both her and her mom looked a little more relaxed when I said that. I helped change a diaper, helped with the creams and gauze from the circumcising and just held and rocked him and she remarked that I knew what I was doing and she was going to need help and was glad that I knew what I was doing lol.
So all of that was really good news... the bad news? I am in pure agony right now. My entire right leg is in spasms and painful (even a pain killer isn't dulling it) and my right arm right from neck down to fingers is burning. It really makes me mad that just going in and getting to know my best friends new little baby and holding him for a few hours has caused so much pain. It is just so frustrating :( Going to have to double up on the pain meds if I want any chance to sleep tonight :S
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)